The Idea of A Perfect Moment

For years the only thing I wrote was fiction – fan fiction, plays, comic books, whatever it was it came from my imagination and onto the page. Recently I vacillate between fiction and personal essays.

I realized the best things I write are moments; small scenes that sometimes have a beginning-middle-and-end, but mostly just showcase a snippet of someone’s life and mind at a particular moment.

So I wrote a scene* about a heart broken girl who is searching for a perfect moment. Because at the end of the day, we all just want one perfect moment to hold onto.

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Legitimate Self Destruction #17 – The End

Here we are. The last chapter. The final installment. The end of a saga. It’s strange for me to be typing this since I actually finished writing this story a decade ago, but it feels like a good ending. Enjoy it, and catch my commentary on this story as a whole at the very end.

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Legitimate Self Destruction #16 – Thanksgiving

Have you ever created a vision of someone in your head and then actually met them, or paid attention to what they say, or at all noticed anything they’ve ever done and realized that your vision is complete crap? That’s what happened to me long after I wrote this story.

The characterization of Frankie and Gerard is… atrocious feels like the right word. And for a chapter that takes place at Thanksgiving there is very little thanks, and no food.

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Legitimate Self Destruction #15 – Traffic

When the chapter starts out “I sit pondering…” you know it’s going to be slightly more of a mess than normal. But, I’ve committed too much of my life to this to watch it fade away before all of you get to read the finale.*

So in Chapter 15 a whole lot of nothing happens, disguised as plot by the fact that they do some things.
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Legitimate Self Destruction #14 – Flashbacks

I’m just going to brace you, after last week’s eventful surprise we’ve got a flashback. That’s right, and it’s not to some cool time like the mid 90s. Nope, it’s to (probably) several months before this chapter takes place. It’s awkward, and embarrassing, and painful to read. But so is this whole story.

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Legitimate Self Destruction #11 – Home?

Fair warning, this chapter contains a suicide attempt. A very badly written, not realistic, suicide attempt. But it may be triggering or unpleasant none the less.

So we pick up at the VMA after party. You already knew that I was an ignorant 12 year old, but this just puts a cherry on that Sunday.

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